||[Apr. 7th, 2005|11:49 am]
I am sorry if I have hurt you. I did not realize that you were trying to get in touch with me because I got none of your email(s?). My comment was made in a state of blind panic being faced with the prospect of not having made the deadline for room draw. I realize that it hurt you, but I want you to know that there was no hurt or pain intended. I am not the best communicator over long distances, especially when the time zones are so off and it costs so much to call. I also would like to request to have your cell phone number, because I do not have it. I did not mean to insult, hurt, or confuse anybody. I guess I just messed up (again) and I ask you for forgiveness.
I want to reiterate just how much you mean to me, not just as a stupid proxy but as a friend. I have never had a friend like you before, and your friendship means so much to me. To have someone that I can trust so implicitly and who is always willing to help me is an indescribable feeling. I can only be glad that you are my friend. I hope you forgive me.